It’s not impossible, is it?

It can not be that hard! Just doing nothing all day long! Letting you go, letting everything go. It doesn’t sound that hard, agreed! It sounds so easy and technically it is. And I? I start feeling bad. Feeling bad for not working on my goals when it’s even one of my goals to calm down. How silly can life be?

Switching off from work was easy!

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I am impressed, honestly! I can not believe how quickly work disappeared from my mind. I still know what I am usually doing, of course, but all the problems in the current projects are suddenly no longer important. I have so much more brain capacity left for me. But that’s not necessarily a good thing. I start to wonder. I start to question things.

It took me four days until I got my tinder app back and running.

Not again! Why? Andreas, just why? You did not have any success with that app. You had one real match after how many months? Or should we better say years? And that was more an accident than anything else. Well, this time it’s different. I got a match after a couple of hours! What? Never! I can’t believe it either! There must be something wrong! A paid person that gives me the feeling of getting noticed? What is wrong with me? That’s the first thing that comes to mind? Well, it’s not going well. I’m too old for this shit but too desperate to find her. Ok, it’s time, I agree, but your requirements! It’s not possible to find her. Not that quickly!

My mind is everywhere but definitely not switching off. Does someone has an idea? I am doing 5 hours sport a day, sure that helps but can’t be the solution? Back to meditating? Not again! Well, you will not believe it but I will try to switch off right now. It’s already dark outside but the pool has LED lights.

See you next time!

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