I am nervous. Right now? Yes. The reason? A stupid reason. But that’s the thing. We are not choosing to feel nervous. In an ideal world I would like to choose when feeling nervous and when not. But of course I would bann it from my life and that’s why this is impossible, isn’t it?
Feeling nervous is a way to protect ourselves. I get it. But it sucks. It really does! How can this be any good? I just want to have a relaxed day. I want to enjoy it. I really don’t learn the lesson, do I? It’s something I miss. Something about just being me. Not to fulfill expectations. Just being who I am. If someone doesn’t like that. Well, not my problem, right? Exactly. I need to get rid of these thoughts. I need to free myself from this concept I have developed over time. And a key point is here to sit around and do nothing. To just spent some time with myself. No distractions. No nothing. Just me and myself.
See you next time!
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