Today I wondered. Why do I even do what I do? Why having this daily blog? Why looking for a job? Why focusing so much on racing cars in a circle?
The funny thing about life is, that there is no right or wrong. There is nothing we are supposed to do. There is nothing we can compare our life to. Wait? What? Have you lost your mind! Of course there is! Just look at our society! You are supposed to have a family, a job, a home, you need to pay taxes, be nice to the neighbors and all those other things! But is that really what life is all about? At the end of the day, life is just about us. Your life, your decision. And in fact, at the end of the day, we need to be satisfied with the outcome, not our neighbors.
But when we question our lives, most of the time we do not question the world as a whole. We do not quit our job, move into the forest and hug trees all day long. We just start to wonder if this life is really what we originally wanted to have. What we expected from life, when we were much younger! We wonder how life could have changed, once we change our decisions from the past! At which point have we changed the path on which we were walking?
With a new chapter of my life having already begun, of course I am questioning this blog as well. Is it really worth the time commitment? Do I still improve in the way I have improved in the beginning? At the end of the day, this is of course a time related thing. With me starting to work full time now, my free time will finally belong entirely to me. There is no other project for university to do, or some exams to prepare for. It’s just me and my life. My hobbies, my interests, I can do whatever I want to!
But do I want to continue doing the blog? What a question, right? I mean, sure, I could spend those ten hours a week differently! But honestly, I wouldn’t be the person that I am today! I wouldn’t have learned as much about myself, about life and about writing. I wouldn’t have improved my English skills, I wouldn’t have learned how to write properly and so many more things that come to mind.
Writing the blog was the best decision in my life so far! Why should I stop doing it? Of course I will not stop doing it! I might change the way I am doing it, sure! But we always can change something! I’m trying to make things better here! Of course it might look differently in the future. But come on! That is just what we are supposed to do. We need to move on! Learn from our mistakes and make things even better!
Is the way I do the blog the right way already? Honestly, I don’t think so. Why? Because it could be so much better! There is such a huge potential to make this great, but I am only using 10 % of it yet. Therefore, what I really need to do is to question everything that I currently do. Every category, every topic, even the way I write this thing. Is my writing process efficient enough? Should I continue writing two days upfront? It might sound silly, even childish to go through the project like this! But at the end of the day, this is the lesson to learn! Always question the status quo!
Some people focus too much on others, some people focus too much on themselves. Whatever kind of person you are, question your doing and figure out ways how to do things better! And sure, we have those mind-blowing ideas in mind, but honestly, a simple idea that will make your project just a little bit better is already quite a success story. Never stand still. Never be satisfied with how things are. There is always a space for improvements!
See you next time!