Life is good. Life is great. Life is awesome! Just for the record, I am talking about my life. I have everything that I need, no, actually, I have more than I need. I am young, I have finished university, I found a job, I love what I do, I know what I want. In theory, I should be satisfied. I should wake up every single morning thanking a higher power for this most awesome life!
But in reality, I tend to forget about this. I do not wake up feeling relaxed, calm and like a winner. I get up looking for more. I have this car standing outside which is great! I really like it. But instead of living in the present moment and enjoying the car, I am telling myself that it is not a Porsche. That it is not fast enough, but end up driving in EV mode only and therefore, can’t drive faster than 140 km/h anyways. It just doesn’t make sense, but there is this inner drive to have more!
Honestly, what the hell is wrong with me. Why don’t I just stop this nonsense and enjoy my current life? Why do I worry? Why do I live in fear? There is no need to worry! There is no need to fear anything! This moment! Today, is great! No, it’s awesome! I do projects at work that I like, I have this blog, I have my racing simulator, the pool, the gym, just everything. But still, I just can’t relax. I can’t just live in the present moment! My focus is on the future. But why? Life is now! Not tomorrow, or the day after that! I tell myself that life will be better in the future. That the problems will be gone. That I can do what I want. But the reality is just that, sure, some problems will be gone, but therefore, others will show up. It’s not that one day there is nothing to worry about. No! If I worry today, I will worry in the future as well. Sure, I tell myself that it will get better some day. But that’s just not how it works. That’s just wrong! If we want a change, then we can have the change right now and right here. In fact, if we want a change, we need to start right now and change it.
I need to calm down. I need to realize how great the present moment really is. I need to stop this nonsense of dreaming for this better life, when life today is as good as it can be. I am the problem. My mind, my thoughts, this vision I have about the future. But the secret is not to hustle through the years and retiring on a small island in the middle of nowhere. In fact, this is the nightmare! I need to realize how awesome life already is. I need to wake up feeling like the luckiest guy on this planet, living the dream! My worries, my fears, the pressure I put on myself. This needs to end! This needs to stop! I need to calm down!
See you next time!
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